I know it was a bad decision. And I knew you were going to be upset. I’m as disappointed in myself as you are in me. But you know it hasn’t been easy for me. I’m so sorry because I love you. I know there are way more important things in life than getting good grades and trying to get ahead of everyone else. I’ve always thought and I know that it’s more important to be a compassionate person and to radiate as much love as I can to every person in my life. I know that in my head. But it’s so fucking hard to prioritize those things when the world is screaming in my face that other things are more important. I wish I could keep to my own and live according to my beliefs. I’m so lost.